i am so fucking stupid.

I woke up in happiness, feeling the warmth that i longed for.

only to find myself hours later back to reality.

there is all too much not said, too much built up

to the point where i want nothing more to stab myself in order to release the imence pressure that pushes on every inch of my body and slowly cuts off air to my lungs.

and i need your presence. your very being gives a flicker of light to this black place.

i dont work like you, i cant.

love so easily transitions to hate

desire to rejection

no words can help me

i need your touch to comfort this coldness